I felt disconnected from God. I was going through the motions and participating in church activities, but I wasn't feeling as connected to God as I have in the past. I felt like when I was praying it was ingenuine and forced. I was frustrated and not necessarily with God but with myself. If I'm being honest, I've always felt like prayer was a struggle for me. Praying is hard.

2020 What a year! I know many of you are glad it’s over but 2020 has blessed me in ways I could have never imagined. 2020 taught me so many lessons that I didn’t know I was in need of learning at 30 years old. I am excited for what 2021 will bring but I am thankful for all that 2020 brought, the good, the bad and the ugly!